I was thinking about suicide, so I started use ed.

I don't know your situation...
Think off everything you are great full for. Embrace the suck and move forward. Use your body make yourself feel alive, go and do a hard workout. Run, push ups, pull ups, squads, sit ups. Until ever muscle in your body aces. Your brain will release happy chemicals.

Forgive my ignorance but what is ed?

Thanks xD, ed is an old text editor , it is really weird try if you want@Triskelion

@JackSpera hahaha 😂😂😂
I misread the situation. Ed made me think of emergency department. xD