sunny day, put plants outside
cleaned under plants... then dusted... I had no energy when I woke up but evidently somehow I'm doing spring cleaning. I'm only halfway done, if that

the kitchen lightbulb burnt out today coincidentally. asked roommate if we had extra. he said no, but strangely said he'd go buy and replace it. whoa. we have several dead light bulbs and he hasn't replaced them in years. he actually replaced them all today... very weird

anyway, the one in the kitchen is bright blue now. it seems like all the nightlights in the kitchen are also now permanently on because of it. I do not know if I like this

wait, people call JavaScript code gross but this is C? wtf

Jesus fuck generic number adding in rust is pissing me off

why did I decide to do this

I literally don't have to

let's just add 12 traits and then find out it doesn't know how to divide by usize. well how the hell am I supposed to convert it then. there's no trait for "f64 as f32" so now my shit looks like spaghetti cuz of that, now this...

so let's see I could call into() on usize to get it to be unknown T number... but there's no way for it to know what to convert to and I can't determine if there's any way for me to tell it that

THESE STRAITJACKETS
I might just need a padded room at this rate
*goes to sleep* later

.... required for usize to implement Into<T> wat

😩
I suspect that's gonna be another dead end
GOod ErrOrS

I really gotta stop accepting food from other people

my birthday was the other day and my roommate wanted to get me something special to eat for free

I said I keep dreaming of the samosa salad from Indian places he would get and I would keep stealing a spoon full of to try (this was after I got sick and insensitive to food so I was cautious)

he insisted it was from this fast food place... that's weird. I don't think it was. he insists all Indian places have it on their menu but he just didn't know. and he was getting this fast food's place one and that's the one I liked. ok. I consent.

I go running, come back, shower, hungry and food arrived, so I scuff down half the samosa salad thing
now I feel like trash
and it tastes nothing like it
it has fucking BBQ sauce in it. no yogurt. it's supposed to be Indian. what the fuck, sweet-ass bqq sauce? the spiciness is some retarded white people taste. this isn't the punch of Indian food.
30% of the mass is cucumber. wat. there's fucking pomegranate seeds in it so you can't even chew it. what am I even eating. the samosa pieces are all soggy and not crunchy like I remember. the spiciness sucks. there's no yogurt to counteract it either. just pathetic

and now I feel like garbage. I feel sick to my stomach. because that BBQ sauce was a lot more sugar than you could taste.

I fucking hate my life. I hope I don't get sick from the food, cuz I have food insensitivities... and I knew before when I took spoonfuls of what he ordered they didn't effect me... but that wasn't this.

this fucker literally lied and used me to order food guilt-free under the pretense of "hey it's your birthday and I wanna get you a meal". and he orders disgusting fast food that isn't even food. "for me". while lying to me. me who can't even eat the damned cherries I love without my brain degrading because those are too much sugar. what the hell is wrong with this guy

I know I got downvoted for this before but fuck I hate fat people. I don't want to eat fast food. I want real food. I don't want to get sick off fake fucking BBQ sauce infused with disgusting sugar. all this guy does is make excuses for the food he wants to eat. maybe I'm just literally food insensitive watching him eat himself to death I don't know. I feel like puking

I swear nothing good anyone ever does for you is ever for you. people are rotten.

is there even anyone who thinks natively in rust

if someone knows someone with YouTube channel or something that'd be great

I don't mean explanations but they actually intuitively design in it inside their own heads

generally my brain catches onto that fast but with rust I find i prototype stuff then have to go back and rewrite everything... which is a pain
and now I'm trying to do a complicated iterator object with sub functions and my brain evidently needs to make a leap over like 5 new concepts and I don't know if it's worth the effort or it will go nowhere

but if there's videos of somebody who codes natively, unconscious competence in rust then I could pick up the intuition way faster from watching them
just the problem is any content for rust is made by people who don't seem to really know rust, but are just moonlighting through it or fanboys of it

you are a dinosaur, harry

have you ever learned something you wish you hadn't and also what was it

mystery food science

what happened to this egg

in rust I can add some functions to, say, an array / vector of specific types

specifically, I want to add a function to draw a chart on an array of some time and values

but I can only do this if I make a trait / interface first, and add the trait / interface to the array-type thingy

which is strange to me
why can't I just implement it without the trait?
it just doesn't want you to be able to add functions to a data type you didn't make

I mean I think it's cool I can just add functions to random data types will-nilly like this
but why must I define a stupid trait
I'm not going to be using generics over that trait anyway 🤷
and yet, I must make the trait...

now I'm becoming much more aware how I'm shadowbanned on YouTube...

I watch a lot of small channels and I literally can't talk to them, I just realized...

shaodwbanning means it's one way communication only. you have to listen to the propaganda box and you don't matter and can't give any feedback at all

I wanted to give some business takes on someone analyzing some companies, and I can't... because I'm in the propaganda box. I'm not considered a person who deserves a voice, on anything now, ever, for the rest of time. I'm just a receptacle

reminds me of the philosophical definition of objectification some feminist wrote about: https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/...

instrumentality: the treatment of a person as a tool for the objectifier’s purposes;
denial of autonomy: the treatment of a person as lacking in autonomy and self-determination;
inertness: the treatment of a person as lacking in agency, and perhaps also in activity;
fungibility: the treatment of a person as interchangeable with other objects;
violability: the treatment of a person as lacking in boundary-integrity;
ownership: the treatment of a person as something that is owned by another (can be bought or sold);
denial of subjectivity: the treatment of a person as something whose experiences and feelings (if any) need not be taken into account

we are all irrelevant playthings to some narcissistic speakerboxes

did anyone else get into programming because unlike a person when you get into an argument about who is right you can objectively prove it and prove it again and prove it sideways and up and the answer is gonna be always the same or your fault for testing it that way

and if not, why else

learning about neural nets I'm realizing...

ummm I didn't recognize this random-ass line as a "7". I thought someone drew a space ship or something. is my brain's neural net just not working?

I don't think I recognize dogs by visuals... I smell them...

I don't notice the edges of T-shirts and shit. I just recognize them as colors... I recognize everyone wearing clothes by the colors. not the edges.

am I retarded

at one point documents were useful things to align people to the relevant information to the tasks they must complete for everything to work out

now documents are a ritual, and relevant information is even forgotten or omitted and considered secondary to the document existing and looking like a professional document

I wonder if this is how all industries evolve
at one point there were people who knew what they were doing, they created processes so nobody is left behind
and over time, whoever made the processes, the spirit for their existence, is forgotten
and you're left with empty rituals, so devoid of their original function, the humans subjected to these things, crushed by them, can't even discern what their usage is

evidently if you put monkeys in an enclosure with some apples up a tree with a mechanism that if a monkey goes up the tree and takes an apple it sprays all the other monkeys in the enclosure with water
the monkeys will learn to pull down any monkey trying to go up the tree, because they don't wanna get sprayed
and this will keep going, generations will change and yet they'll still religiously pull down the monkeys, in a ritual... nobody remembers why only that their parents did this to them, so they do it to others
if you take the trap away, they never figure it out, which is how this story is typically told
but regardless of if the trap is there or not
wouldn't you wanna know and see it for yourself instead of following empty rituals?!

and what of people who erroneously view things as traps, and pull people down, but they were just seeing things?!
self limiting myths to doom the ages!

this is the first time I've laughed at a joke made by an AI

can you feel the walls closing in on you yet

turns out you not being allowed to be root of mobile devices you literally own was culminating to this point

https://youtube.com/watch/...

would be sooooo fun for a hacker 🤷

upside I guess, if your website's content is generated by JavaScript I'm too lazy to find an emulator to scrape it off you

granted I'm sure this website's business would've been much better had they made it scrapable since I'm quite literally trying to retrieve their capabilities listed in one of their help pages and give myself alerts when they gain new features

but no, I guess

finally fixed up my busted laptop and set everything up in a new environment

went back to my old codebase, which evidently I lost more code for with that failing SSD than I thought...

got acquainted again because my memory is so garbage I don't even remember what I did really

got into it, played around a bunch
it became night and I hyper so I do my exercising routines to calm my messed up nervous system or whatever
go to sleep, wake up 4 hours later but I need more sleep
stay awake for an hour, my brain intricately redesigned the codebase and expands the feature base by like 80%
I am annoyed it's thinking so much
eventually tired myself out, get sleepy, fall asleep
wake up 3 hours later
I feel like crap and I remember nothing of the codebase yesterday much less are able to think about it

why and what just what
why you do this, body

every time I encounter code that's not rust I get jealous because it's so much easier to understand what it's doing lol

but it's also ugly tbf

so many rust libraries have code in the README but it isn't syntax highlighted lol

this is such a dire omen to me
like it's so basic
why did you miss it

the singularity is gonna be some nonsense

"take yourself as serious as your enemy does"

hmmm

I don't remember how many days of configuring i3 I've been in but I just wanna move on with my life now pls

little did they know, skynet and matrix weren't exterminating and exploiting humans by an accident of logic, but were deliberately programmed by people to do so, as a joke

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

software corruption, incompetence https://odysee.com/@GrandTheftWorld...

python devs are not devs

why do you need numpy and 30 other packages to change some lights on a keyboard

and then the kicker is that it doesn't even work, because it can't find a daemon I guess

this is so fragile
so ridiculous
every time, these math people

holy shit I swear taxes are like the government trying to tell you you're a peasant to them

my medicare card is about to expire and FOR SOME REASON now the process to renew is a fucking interrogation about various documentation the government has given you. before it was just your damned name, date of birth, and a new photo for the card.

evidently they were supposed to send you snail mail 3 months before expiration. evidently also the only way to renew is get this said snail mail.
and evidently I have to go through this "catchall" change your address with everything in the government process
which is a little ironic
because
to use this service you need to give them something called a notice of assessment, which is when the government accepts your taxes they send you back one of those
well I haven't had access to my tax portal for years. I keep filing them and getting excess money back but I can't actually see any of my returns.
so I tried this time
12 pages of verification and more verification... you do one step, it says wrong info because if you have to write in 2,474 well turns out the , fucks it up and your info doesn't match what's on file and if you fail more than 3 times you'll be locked out. repeat. page after page. how many fucking pages are there? what format are they expecting? nobody fucking knows. you'll get to find out if you pass just this one more!
after about 4 hours of this shit
and they have 2 factor authorization now?! wtf.

then this next step is id verification or we snail mail you a code (WHICH AGAIN IS IRONIC)

I chose id. health card doesn't count, it notifies me later. thankfully I have a passport. bad news, passport expires this September so guess who is gonna be having more fun later
the app of course can't use my camera in the browser I have, so I start downloading fucking other browsers and finally hit one that works
also they lied. they also want a selfie. then it tells me I failed to look like myself. if you fail to look like yourself 3 times you are denied.

ok. so I try snail mail. the page says if I revoke consent to id I can go do the snail mailed code. they lied. if you revoke consent it exits the whole wizard. you enter all the verification steps again.

I try to get them to snail mail me the code. they want some basic info they asked me like 16 times now, and a postal code. ironic. well this is the tax people, so by this point I found all my previous sent in tax returns (though I can't access the government's replies). checked. yep. address all the same. put in the postal code. nope. somehow it's wrong. 3 times I put all this random info in in different ways. 5 times and I'm locked out.

now fucking what.

THE FUCKING IRONY OF
I NEED TO CHANGE WHERE I LIVE SO YOU CAN SNAIL MAIL ME SOMETHING
AND TO CHANGE WHERE I LIVE I HAVE TO CONFIRM WHERE I LIVE SO YOU CAN SNAIL MAIL ME SOMETHING FUCKING ELSE

the government just fucking dunks on you

guess we're all not having fucking medical cards anymore. all we do is pay taxes, and can't even see the paperwork to those taxes we pay.

help
I've split my i3 windows and I can't get out

happy Bitcoin halvening

and also I hereby announce I have replaced the drive in my laptop that busted a few days ago with the new one that just got shipped to me. happy birthday to my new era of computing. calling this one lattice. happy birthday lattice 😋

time to figure out how i3 works